ok. so i made another blog.
i guess some would think i'm crazy, so near A's, still make what stupid blog?
some would think, oh well, he also don't study one.
well.. i do, contrary to popular believe, feel stress. i get all pissy and pouty when i'm overstressed so i have to destress too. after realising that crying my heart out every night into my pillow wasn't healthy(i'm kidding! lol dun believe that its a joke. lol.) ... (lol), i decided to make a blog. well my previous blog was a flop, so i decided that, heck it let's make a new one! so i got this pretty background and sat down at my com (after finishing my history SBQ... heh) and i realised... i dun have anything to write.
so i decided to talk about what bugs me the most. school.
honestly, school life for me is a flop. my friends are great, but the non-stop lessons and effort all seem so endless at times. its for the A's, i know. its one of the most important 3 months of your life, i know. and in my defense, i am trying to gear up... but god its hard. i'm a slacker, i know. but i wasn't always this way. (cue sad music)
pri school i was this hardworking little shit. i rushed home everyday from p1 to 3 and did my school work. i had almost no friends. i had no cca. i had no regular places to hang out. my life consisted of school, school bus, and the packet of lemon barley i drank every recess. i mugged my ass off without knowing why. p4 to p6 even worse, i had to go to this daycare. god, everyday after school, i'd rush to the school bus which took me to the daycare and i'd do all the regular stuff that daycares do.
-reach daycare
-eat lunch(vegetarian. i shit you not.)
-do work
-daily enrichment class
-meditation(this was actually a class. we'd all sit on mats and do the lotus leg thing that hurts your chances of tarting a family. then we'd just sit in the dark while the setting sun streamed in through the windows, thinking happy thoughts. i shit you not.)
-afternoon nap(of course, you'd get tired after all that zen stuff.)
-board games/outdoor sports(where'd you think i learned how to kick ass at chinese chess! well, sort of.)
-go home
as you can see, not exactly a day in the life of james bond. no excitement. zilch. unless u count the suspense, of whether the teacher caught u sleeping during meditation or not.
so you see, i think i cracked at secondary school. after a life of fun-celibacy, i decided to live it up. no homework for this dude!
and well, i'm fucked. yeah. A levels coming yet here i am. wholly unprepared. but hey, life's like that. maybe people may look down on me, or think that its better not to associate with such a slacker. hey its cool. my life's like that. right now, i'm doing my best to catch up, but i'm like a car that hasn't been driven in years. shoulda started studying earlier. lol.
yeah well, one last thing before i go. you know that ladder we're all climbing up? the study ladder, the career ladder, the i-wanna-get-rich-anyway-i-can ladder, the there's-a-hot-girl-above-me-so-i'm-just-gonna-keep-my-head-up-and-my-eyes-open ladder... i've climbed quite a few ladders in my life. and i've fallen down so many of them its hard to keep climbing. i've felt alot of times that i wanna give up, just jump off. and many times i have. but one thing i see a lot is, many aren't climbing the ladder because they want whats up there. many climb it cause others are. admit it. there are times in which we study and mug, for the sole goal of beating that one guy who always scores so damn well. and hey, maybe it works for you. but i just wanna say, (and this does sound a little weird coming from me) that, dun lose sight of what you're climbing for just cos of the ass right above you. if whats at the top of that ladder isn't really what you want out of life, stop wasting your time. stop chasing asses, stop following the crowd, stop trying to fit in.
do what you think is right, do what you know is right, do what you feel is right.
that A level cert means alot to many people. you can't get anywhere without it, sure. but after you do get it, are you sure you'll still remember what it is that you got the cert for? how many childhood dreams have you forsaken to get this cert? to be an artist. to be an actor. to be an astronaut. to be a writer. they say the A level cert and the uni degree are all just steps you have to take before pursuing your dreams. fine, keep it that way. i dunno bout you, but i haven't even taken the exam and i've forgotten i wanted to be a writer.
i know all this is corny, but yeah. always keep that dream in sight, never let go of it.
well, thanks for reading! i know most people are busy studying now, but i hope its not too much to take time out to read this blog:) lol.
next time.
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